Monday, May 19, 2008

Thoughts for this week in May

I had no idea that I only had 4 hours of sick leave left for the year. It probably would have been better that at least some of those days involved hangovers, but, alas, they did not.

I am having to invent some bike parts, because most bike parts are made by rejected engineers from the big 5 automakers- which means that the vast majority of them are expensive, and crappier than appliqué chrome detailing.

While I am dealing with celiacs and diabetes (both of which are mostly under control), I am also dealing with my usual sensory integration issues. This results in my feeling worn out after hearing too many unpredictable noises, or not being able to modulate everything I sense down from 11 on the dial. The bonus of having to deal with so many health issues is that I stopped trying to be "normal" any more. If you can't deal with my being anti-social or "weird", its not my problem.

Being able to really feel depressed because my senses are out of whack is much better than denying it and putting on a happy face. I can now deal with my problem and feel better in record time.

The day job is getting weird. Sales droids are attacking me in droves, and my jedi skills are being tested. When that is not happening, I am configuring a notification management system called AlarmPoint. When that is not happening, people interrupt one of the above with unusual questions.

I ate some fries that had been cooked in old oil on purpose, just so my celiacs blood test would have a higher likelihood of showing a positive result. The downside is that it feels like I have a small ferret wriggling up and down my intestines at inconvenient times. The upside is that this is much less painful than swallowing a half-teaspoon of wheat flour. And fries are always tasty.

A friend of mine has a new love interest. While I tried my best to avoid levity regarding certain...differences...but when the subject was breached I couldn't help mentioning that I would send mountain climbing gear and lederhosen in order to help with his conquest of my friend. My wife served as proxy puncher in this regard.

It's past midnight here, but I am wide awake. The delta breeze is moving through town, and I am truly enjoying cool temperatures for the first time in a week.

My daughter adopted a cat. Then she tried to adopt a stray kitten. Then she tried to adopt the cat's already adopted kittens. Then she re-adopted the cat. After that, she cried because she couldn't have all the cats. Our two pre-existing cats are nonplussed.

Saturday, May 3, 2008

Tidbits of Joy

I have some random updates, and the news is mostly good this time:

  • My bike parts have come in, I ride to work next week.
  • I am not going blind in two years according to my doctor- my blindness reversed itself with severe diet change and my vision is fully restored.
  • I am afflicted with celiacs, and it is not all in my head, according to my allergist.
  • New things are happening at work, and change is always good and welcome.
  • Computer parts for the first stage of my non-profit I.T. project are being ordered tomorrow.
  • My daughter is still cute, even when she throws a fit in the bike store.
  • Pam just bought a bike to pull Sophia's trailer around with.
  • People are randomly helping me reach my personal goals. That's pretty cool.
Beyond these minor and salient points, my life has mostly been looking up in spite of numerous setbacks and undesirable changes. The things I like are outweighing the things that made me miserable. This means that life is good, and the daisies outside our front room window are still coming up!

The Lack of Proof in God

A couple of days ago a co-worker of mine brought up the idea that some of the concepts of evolution in science were refutable, so that meant the concept of evolution was flawed, and since it was flawed it must mean it is false. I was then obliged to put for that if somehow someone found a lack of facts in a chain of events did not mean that something is proved false, it just meant that because some parts of the theory of evolution seemed refutable did not make the possibility of evolution any more or less probable. And that even if the theory of evolution was proved false, which it is not simply because evidence is missing, that did not automatically mean that God spontaneously caused creatures just to appear when prior evidence did not exist showing a clear path of evolutionary change.

This turned then to the concept of a created universe by a supreme God that just "made it happen". I told my coworker that the concept of causality he was embracing regarding a proof of God was flawed, and that if God were real, He certainly did not need proving, if one could prove something both omnipotent and undefinable existed in the first place. I never went into the discussion that by placing limits on an unlimited being you define and limit that being and eliminate its status as omnipotent and unlimited.

The thought of trying to define God, and we are talking in the "People of the Book" sense of a sole supreme monotheistic entity, is that if God is real, you really can't define something that is determined to be outside of your realm of comprehension due to the accepted facts that God is omnipotent and spans our entire realm of existence. Saying then that "this is what God does" and "this is what God is" just goes to show that most people don't really grasp the concept of unknowns too well. Which, really, gets back to the science discussion we were having.

I had to explain that real scientists don't view the concepts of things like evolution as absolutes. That is why they are called theories- which means they are postulations that are unproven and possibly may be either proven or unproven at some point in the future. I mentioned that most scientists also seem to have a difficult time with the concept of unproven and instead form definite positions based on something unproven. There are lots of scientists who very clearly have a "religious" bias in regard to some portions of the theory of evolution appearing to be provable, and therefore taking those components outside of the theory in general and applying them to a worldview. Much like evangelists for any other form of faith in an orthodoxy, these people abandon the tenets of Descartes and make the egregious mistake of claiming that since some scientific facts are provable, then other things that were not taken, discussed or created in a scientific fashion must be false.

I told my co-worker that while I do play Devil's advocate regarding people who wish to state that the theory of evolution is false, I don't actually support whether a theory of evolution is true or not. I said that people on both sides of the argument- as to whether things were spontaneously created out of nothing, or slowly created themselves out of some basic amino acids- was mostly ignoring that a theory means that the facts aren't known to be proven or true. Theory also means that nobody really knows if any of it is false. People have a hard time living in a state of uncertainty, and that makes it difficult to understand that real science has little to do with arguing a point of view beyond the basics of proven or not proven, and that when people stray from that state into conclusion, then what they are doing is no longer science as they no longer follow the scientific method. Worse, the religious using that same flawed logic to attempt to disprove evolution doesn't help the case of those arguing for intelligent design or some other form of creationism either.

Then I contrasted that viewpoint, and stated that even Descartes was a very religious man, and that other scientists believe and have believed in religions as well. Science doesn't define the world, it just defines those things scientists view and attempt to define in the world as consistent or inconsistent. Also, I mentioned that I don't follow the derisive concepts on evolutionary absolutism professed by Dr. Dawkins either, as I find his point of view just as dogmatic as any other religious nut, except that Dr. Dawkins' orthodoxy is atheism- and that he has an easier time defending himself, as he essentially and rabidly believes in the Big Nothing, which is awfully hard to take a swing at.

Then my coworker had to ask what I personally believe in. Well, I told him that was personal, and while I don't take Dawkins' point of view, I also don't believe in spontaneous creation of complex life forms. Beyond that, I said, I have nothing I need to explain.

And for those reading this, I will explain more on my viewpoints on God tomorrow, as I wish to at least record my own personal point of view for later discussion with my daughter, and don't want to forget what I was thinking about later on. Beyond that, don't expect anything new, and please don't take what I believe personally as Gospel.

Monday, March 17, 2008

How to not get someone to pay a bill

Since we moved from our old house to our new home, we lost or missed some bills that we thought we had paid. This means that my wife has been receiving some insistent phone calls from people we don't know, and we respond by politely informing them of our new address, please send us, blah blah blah. Then, there are those people who feel that they were contracted to be abusive. Of course, after having been through the year we experienced in 2007, the likelihood of our responding with the expected results to an intimidating phone call is close to about zero.

The very best way to ensure that I become completely intractable is, of course, to attempt to use military interrogation techniques over the phone. I used to be in the service, and was subjected to interviews and knew about more extreme measures employed at the time- though nothing like we do today. So, when I get a call from a man who jumps between reasonable bonhomie, to foul-mouthed irratibility, to carefully modulated giggling, all in response to various changes in my own responses and voices stressors...well, I get peeved. I get even more peeved when the noises in the background also match the caller's jarring attempts at getting me to come off balance and acquiesce because it is the easiest thing to do. Instead, I dig in.

Nothing makes an interrogator more upset than their interviewee anticipating their methods and using them against them. You can tell with US interrogators because the weak ones will resort to threats. The funny thing is that I just got done being threatened by the IRS, itinerant robbers, my ex-landlord, diabetes, and death all in one year. Some strange guy tittering on the phone to annoy me into giving up my bank account information isn't likely to have much success. I almost felt sorry for him, and then drew out the conversation for another 15 minutes before he caught on and ratcheted up the threats, at which point I bid him goodnight.

The good thing that came out of this is that I was able to explain another piece of my past to my wife. She has disliked our government's policies in dealing with interrogations (torture), and I was able to now give her an example of what our pre-torture interrogations might be like- with, of course, the exception that you would be face to face in a little room and it would go on for days or weeks until you broke. My wife's experience on the phone was important to me, because I had known some people who were into the shady side of military operations when I had been in the Army. It left an impression on me, knowing people like that, but it's easier to explain it to Pam when people give you examples.

So, to the gentleman claiming to be from Western Credit (if that is really who you were), we salute and thank you for your time in the service, and are glad that you can find gainful employment using your skills in a slightly less devious and hurtful fashion.

However, we still don't pay unless we see something in writing. Have a nice day

Saturday, March 15, 2008

Inconceivable!!!

There have been issues lately with our DSL line. It stopped working after last week. This was due to a misunderstanding between ourselves and AT&T. They believed that they could bill us for whatever they felt like, and we felt we shouldn't pay them until they explained themselves. After many conversations and negotiations back and forth, we have decided to cancel our landline and move over to a cell based card for our family laptop. We couldn't argue much about the bill once they explained what they did, but we didn't like what we would characterize as a shady way of billing for service.

The rub, of course, is that we would have to migrate back to Microsoft Windows to make our cell based card work. Inconceivable!!! But it was necessary. So, as of tonight, I am not writing from a Linux box, nor a BSD box, not even a Solaris box. No, I am writing from a box running Windows Home XP. If I wasn't still so pissed at the phone company I would want to cry.

The upside is that a clean install of XPHome doesn't run all that slowly, even though I do consider it less stable than most Linux distributions. On the other hand, other things run flawlessly, so its a wash between comparable annoyances. Google pack definitely made it easier to switch, and my free games are still free and usable.

The only downside is trying to get all of our backup volumes off of the LVM storage that we had set up...